I have to apologize to all of my followers. It has been so long since I’ve posted. My husband, I and both the boys have recently moved and man oh man has it been hectic. But on the bright side no more rent! We are buying a place! Also while in the middle of this I haven’t been eating healthy and we can’t really afford healthy things (I think our farmers markets are over priced) but once we’ve been living here for at least a month and figure out how tight the budget is going to be. I will get back on track with my eating because I can feel the change in my body and how I feel since we’ve been eating alot of red meat and not enough fruits and veggies (I HATE IT!)

WiW I gained .6 of a pound but I weighed myself a night so I’m not to worried about it.. The thing is, is that I weighed myself on my scale at home (which is the kind that has the circular weight thingy and when you step on it, it spins til it lands on your weight) well it said 220 and I went to my mother-n-laws (her scale is digital) weighed myself and it said 217.6. So which one is more accurate? And what would you recommend?   Thanks      

KT

For those of you that over eat or binge eat like I slip up and do, here are some helpful tips to quit. Love it          KT

A post today from a fellow tumblr got me reading fitness magazine’s website and I saw this and figured for those of you who read my blog would like this. Thanks KT

I don’t do weigh in Wednesday’s although maybe I should but I like my mother-inlaws scale and we’ve been going over there pretty often. Last week I weigh myself.. Yuck one pound over my normal weight. Tonight I weighed myself I’ve lost 7LBS! YEAH! I haven’t been exercising not because I don’t want to I just don’t want to overwhelm myself, I’ve been changing up my eating habits and what I eat and by doing that I have lost weight! I’m so happy about that, that I didn’t over eat at dinner. Its always so much harder to eat right when you go somewhere else to eat, whether it’s at a restaurant or at someone’s house, but I did it. I had a lot of salad and just a little baked Chicken Parmesan and a 1/4 of a slice of cheesy bread. That may not sound so great to some of you but it’s a big step for me!

KT

I just got done reading “Message in a Bottle” and I have these feeling in me that are just so strong not very often shown and I know Dj wouldn’t understand them. It’s not just love I feel even though the book made me cry because of love lost. I guess I have lost love too not for someone else but for me…..

I often dream of being lean, small body. To run without fat flapping around everywhere. To see defined muscles and to have people look at me when I walk in the room, not just to see who it is but to actually stop and stare with admiration because they can see I’m truly happy and love myself as I am. I hate the fake smiles I give, well not fake but I know in my heart that it’s a half hearted smile. I am not truly happy with myself this big and for the life of me I haven’t had the willpower yet to change it. I just want to be energetic and feel good in my own skin. Now I know that, that doesn’t mean I have to lose weight and be skinny but I’m overweight and I can feel it, I’m an emotional eater, and have just become lazy and it’s yes, I know, a lifestyle and it’s taken me a life time to get this way so it’s not just going to happen over night. I recently found an old pair of shorts that I fit into my senior year. They obviously don’t fit now, they barely make it over my knees.. WOW!! They don’t have a size, but if my memory serves me correct  I believe I was a size 12 juniors and I am by far not that anymore now I am a large 18.. YIKES!

I see other people and know that’s not me but how I wish my body could be similar, but I’m a totally different body from them, I have a large body frame and I don’t know if that discourages me or what but ever since I found out I have just lost motivation. Maybe it’s the cliché of the word large like I have a large body frame and that means I’m going to be large/fat the rest of my life.  There are so many ways I could go about losing weight all these diets and starving myself with crazy vigorous workouts, but I want to do it the healthy way which in turns is the long way but if I do it right then the weight won’t come right back like it would if it was a fad diet.

I think excepting your body and loving your body are to different things, if I except my body, to me, that’s saying I give up on trying to be a better, healthier person. To love my body I think is to nourish it with healthy alternatives, clean it, feed it healthy things, lotion it with non petroleum products, take in the beauty of my body and don’t hate the rest because it still me and honestly what is a life filled with hate, it’s not a life at all.

 I vow to you and myself to love my body/self, take care of myself by eating healthy, being more active, and exercising more. I will step out of my comfort zone and exercise wherever I may be (whether it be at home, the gym, or at the park). My kids come first and if I would get off this god forsaken computer I would have more time with them. I’m going to limit my electronic intake each day. Slow down it’s not a race to death, don’t just look forward to the weekends make the most of the weekdays too. Yes your going to be tired, but its going to be worth it. Not to contradict myself but don’t do all of that at once. Please

As I write this I just don’t feel the motivation that normally would fill me to the brim, when I write a weight loss letter to myself , but that’s not a bad thing because even though I had the motivation it never got fulfilled. So the turn of a new leaf and I’m currently working on the healthy eating even though we may not have the money to always buy everything healthy because for some reason junk food is cheaper..(ha) But when it comes down to it more protein to fill up, without having to ingest to many bad things. That’s that good luck. Remember to love.

I haven’t written very many letters to myself let alone weight loss promises. But for me to be happy again, I mean truly happy inside and out, there is going to be some changes and I’m not going to like it but damn it it’s going to happen. I don’t want to be this size the rest of my life and I’m not going to stop myself from being something better, a better person, happier, healthier and just all around motivated. I’m not going to steel my youth from myself. I have a self annihilating syndrome. It’s a routine that’s all I’ve started and stopped many routines, like taking naps (started and stopped) eating fried food (started along time ago and stopped, very hard) and for my sake I am going to start the routine of working out and stop the routine of annihilating myself and over eating.

    It’s with these words that starts a whole new me.

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Well you haven’t heard from me in awhile…. sorry…. I have lost my workout mojo and I’m am trying to remember why I wanted it and I remember but have lost the passion that goes with it. How do you regain passion? I know all my goals and I haven’t gained any weight, I just haven’t lost any. I’ll get it back just have to get up! Get motivated! Make a routine <— that’s the hard part. I was also wondering does everyone have a personal trainer?

Thank you so much.. I appreciate it more than you know. If you have any pointers on healthy meals or work out tips that you would want to share. I would appreciate that too.. thanks

I have recently found out that I have a large body frame… (I don’t like that.. I know I probably shouldn’t think like that but hopefully that will come in time) So my the weight I originally wanted to get down to is the lowest it should be. Large frame’s with my height is 124-145 Once upon a time I was 145lbs and didn’t like it. Maybe I’ll try to get down to the weight that has been on my drivers license (which I’ve never been) 135 that sounds about even.. And with all goals I might get down to 140 or 145 and decide I look and feel great then that’s probably where I’ll stop. The ultimate goal to love your body, it’s yours for along time.

I know your body fluctuates at least 2lbs but I’m 3lbs down in 4 days and I don’t care if pounds fluctuate I lost 3lbs and I’m proud of that!!

Today I dealt with a lot of weakness, just like everyday, I started out with a pancake, sausage and syrup.. (oh no.. here comes the guilt) I didn’t have anything for lunch, I’m sure thats not healthy either but I didn’t feel hungry because of breakfast. Dinner came around and I had Salmon once again (but I love it!) Then about 7pm made it to the gym! Worked out for 2 hrs and loved every painful moment of it.. And earned two new work out partners. Am so excited about it!

Just imaging what I could be in 56wks, hoping, wanting not to be this big and heavy anymore. Even through all of this my husband love every ounce of me and that just makes it too easy to just stop and be satisfied with my weight and Damn it I don’t want to be. Sometimes I just wish he would get on my case about my weight, but in the end I know that would just make it really bad for our relationship. I love him so much and through thick and thin he loves me. I want to be strong for him and me.

I’ve given myself 56wks to lose 100lbs. That’s about 2lbs a week I can do that. I’m on week one started on Friday August 25. So we’ll see how I do. Wish me Luck